Where am i now?

"For everything there is a season,
And a time for every matter under heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away;
A time to tear, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate,A time for war, and a time for peace."

- Ecclesiastes 3:1-8




where am i now?
i dun belong.
i dun belong.

i think i'm numb alr.

Comfort zone.

you know. most of the time. it's all about stepping out of your comfort zone to do things, to accomplish stuff, to feel happy.

anw. monstie will be going off on monday to another fosterer's home.

ok. i'll need to go study for tut quiz tmr

ok. bye.

"Love—is anterior to Life—
Posterior—to Death—
Initial of Creation,
andThe Exponent of Earth—"

-Emily Dickinson

i found this interesting. process and love it.

Boredddddd......

ttm.

redang or nt to?

diving or nt to?

to give or nt to?

i want to shop.

i've got headband fetish recently.

random post.

ok. bye.

Chronic fatigue.

everything i typed went missing. tsk.

basically. nth much.

i'm jus torn between so much things recently. i have to make decisions sooner or later. how to deal with it?

ok. bye.

Gown fitting.

my sis will be having her gown fitting tmr. wahahaha. after so long. i'm skipping lecture for that. my other sis graduation ceremony is tmr also. i won be attending that. mum is still in menopause mood. i hope everything would be ok by tmr.

i'm soooooo bored. i neeeeeed to study.

f.

ok. bye.

Procrastinating

i was supposed to study. but apparently, i've been sleeping for the whole day. seriously. that's why i say, the health magazine is accurate. i suffer from chronic fatigue. wahahahaha.

anw. i dun like being home when mum is in menopause mood. she hasn't been talking. i think she's still angry with my sis for damaging the car. tsk. not as if she hadn't knocked into other car previously.

i think with mum's temper now, i'd better do something about monstie soon. anw. i shall jus introduce her to SPCA as Mon (pronounce mo-on) when the time comes. the place is our last resort. i'd miss her for sure but i've got no choice. anyone can offer help fostering?

baby& darling, i've got so much to tell you luh. see you guys in school tmr.

what should i do.

Dempsy, house.

omg. that place was awesome. my wishlist shortened. wahahahaha. everywhere at that place was awesome. even the toilet was awesome. haha.

anw, caught night at the museum 2. i like the sound track. haha.

i've decided to give it up before things get complicated.

someone come along and take my breathe away.

anw, me& my sis brought monstie out for a swim yesterday. the car went there perfectly fine, came back with a dent because i was retrieving a toy for mon and blocked her view when she was reversing. ok. some picture for you all to enjoy.

ok. bye.

eh, anyways. i was reading this health magazine. it says that blood type B people, me falling into this category, suffers from chronic fatigue. so, i seriously can't help being tired. haha. wahahahah. i have a reason to be tired all the time. haha. ok. bye.

sick, again.

tsk. fever came out of nowhere. yesterday night was horrible.

anw. black hair is sexier. wahahahaha.

i'm going to catch ghost whisperer den catch my sleep. haha

ok. bye.

IVY's.

she takes 30 min to shit.

ok. no lah. i'm just sleepy. waiting for her to get ready before heading to novena. we just came back from china town, searching for the redang packages. quite an expensive getaway with my tight budget. hopefully, i can take my diving there. though it's gonna cost a bomb.

anw, my attachment at underwater world is kinda confirmed as long as i get my diving license. the thing is, i'm only afraid they're only taking in 1 intern. ahhhhhhhhh. den i would have kinda wasted my money.

ok. i'm sleepy. i wanna go shop. should i work tmr? tsk.

ok. bye.

GG madness.

wahahaha. 24.3% to my gossip girls FINALE!! the video better work.

o. anw, montie's tooth chipped yest. i think it's stuck on some furniture or her toy. haha. my sis was saying monstie is so crazy because of me. i tend to chase her around the hse when i'm bored. haha. stupid. but i seriously want to entertain her, since she likes running around, i fulfilled her wish. did i tell you, she always sleep belly up. damn cute can. re-toilet training her is like damn difficult. troublesome.

ok. i'm going back to stare at the torrent screen and be prepared to hit play once it reaches 100%. MUHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHA! chuck& blair, hereeeee-iiiii-coommmmmeee!

ok.bye.
















i see. i'm living in my virtual world. then maybe i shouldn't have existed in the real world. we wouldn't even have met. I WON'T FUCKING MEDDLE ANYMORE. FUCK.

Title-less.

" How is one to live a moral and compassionate existence when one is fully aware of the blood, the horror inherent in life, when one finds darkness not only in one's culture but within oneself? If there is a stage at which an individual life becomes truly adult, it must be when one grasps the irony in its unfolding and accepts responsibility for a life lived in the midst of such paradox. One must live in the middle of contradiction, because if all contradiction were eliminated at once life would collapse. There are simply no answers to some of the great pressing questions. You continue to live them out, making your life a worthy expression of leaning into the light. "

- Babbary Lopez

i shouldn't meddle. i shouldn't have meddled from the start.

actions speaks louder than words. so much louder. reality suck, face it.

it hurt me most. ridiculously hurt. when i was down, you kept telling me how not to give anyone any chances since they don't treasure you. i listened, well and hard. everytime i feel like taking the reverse path, your words will start ringing in my mind. now you're together with someone who didn't treasure you. how can you tell me that and not stick to it. i feel betrayed in a way.

love can't explain itself you'd say. you gave up new relases, twice. i can't understand, i don't want to understand. i've been told to stand by you, esp when you're back with him. i stand by my words. i won't accept him, no matter how much he's changed. i'm only prepared to assasinate him if anything happens, ever, again.

ivy, i'm sorry that you're stuck in between.






with marc, twice, i had the choice to or nt to go thru everything. it takes 2 hands to clap. my loves, i'm sorry. your short presence changed my life. you made me realise what real, real true love is all about and what life is all about. life is so short, it's all you have. treasure it. my regret is there for life. my whole life, i'll pay for it. i'm sorry.

wriggle, roll, wriggle, roll .....

ok. this basically summed up my sat night. went powerhse with baby, nic (the stick), lothars (the botak one) and ashri (duno how to spell).

the music there was awesome, maybe except the last bit, din know what kind of music it was. i didn't drink a single drop of alcohol. wahahahaha. but i kinda got hungover from drinking too much greentea. i got my flu back as hangover. tsk. i managed to dance till everything was over. first time ever. heh. oh, met lp there also.

i'm so going to wriggle myself to school. so tired. i haven finished studying bpharm. lucky the tut assignment gave me a revision.

ok. i think i'll fb for a while more den go study. bye peeps.

OH WAIT. TMR TMR TMR TMR TMR. GOSSIP GIRLS LAST EPISODE. I WANT CHUCK& BLAIR TO BE TOGETHER LIKE AFTER EONS. but hopefully it'll be available on that site on mon.

ok. bye.

p.s: my sis found this webbie that has the latest shows and movies. the streaming is like damn fast and it updates weekly. but you have to read chinese. you can check it out here.

ok.bye.again.

Haha.

Ewwwwww.

Plain is in

the title tells it all.

my blog is damn plain.

i want to enlarge my profile pic. anyone tell me how? thanks.

haiya. go out or nt?

Monstie

ok. i'm blogging again.

i was in war with monstie earlier on in the toilet. i was trying to bath her. came out with many battle scars& she came out squeeky clean. tsk, so not fair.

i suddenly have craving for some bread at central.

i wanna go shop.

o yea. i wanted to bring monstie to m&m for a swim earlier on, but the gloooooomy sky made it impossible. plan spolit.

anw, some entertainment if you guys are as bored as me.

check out f my life. entertaining indeed.

oh oh. turns out, next week is the actual season finale of gossip girls. i think i think, CHUCK& BLAIR WILL FINALLY BE TOGETHER!!!!!! wahahaha. like finally. but somehow, i think the writer loves twists. hmmm. we shall see.

SHAAAAAGGGGG.

why? because i was too hardworking yest. haha.

i wanna watch movieeee. i shall take action myself. find someone myself to watch with me. wahahahaha.

ok. CSAS is a waste of time. i wanna go home sleep. tsk.

eh. i tot my ankle broke after driving lesson today. pain luhhhh.

anw. someone came to view monstie today. wahahahaha. good thing.

tmr 3 hrs lesson. sian. i'll need to bath monstie after sch. tsk. i wanna go out. someone ask me out.

darling, i'm not really in the mood to club. maybe if he goes, i shall consider. wahahahahaha.

ok. i'm off to do bpharm tut.

tc. :D

i'm kinda of looking for the orange tab to blink. tsk. why did you call me the other night. ffff. TELL ME WHY!!!

残废

爱里行动不便

追不上你的美

脚步再快跟不上你的嘴

分开我骗了谁

想擦掉你的脸

擦不掉痛却更明显

你说你要的世界

在很远

我不了解

分手就分手

别把话说得太美

我像个残废

飞不出你的世界

借不到一点安慰

为什么你拼命后退

退到了边界

结果我没了知觉

就连痛都嫌浪费

在爱里残废

非弄得伤痕累累

累到我无力再追

最怕你突然要挽回

回到了原点原点却又像终点

然后

多痛

一遍

爱里行动不便

追不上你的美

脚步再快跟不上你的嘴

分开我骗了谁

想擦掉你的脸

擦不掉痛却更明显

你说你要的世界

在很远

我不了解

分手就分手别把话说得太美

我像个残废

飞不出你的世界

借不到一点安慰

为什么你拼命后退

退到了边界

结果我没了知觉

就连痛都嫌浪费

在爱里残废

非弄得伤痕累累

累到我无力再追

最怕你突然要挽回

回到了原点原点却又像终点

然后

多痛

一遍

我像个残废

飞不出你的世界

借不到一点安慰

为什么你拼命后退

退到了边界

结果我没了知觉

就连痛都嫌浪费

在爱里残废非弄得伤痕累累

累到我无力再追

最怕你突然要挽回

回到了原点原点却又像终点

然后

多痛

一遍

我像个残废

在爱里残废

i got addicted to this song when jin told me about it. i didn't know what it exactly mean until, we broke up. it somehow became my bible, i'll listen it every single day to remind me how much i've gone through and what i should expect in life, in relationships. reminding me that i should never look back and move on with life. i did anyway, anyhow. wahahahaha.

ok. i'm off to study/ slack/ try to entertain monstie.

hey hey hey. i'm in e lab.

i'm sooooo bored. recieved many irritating call when i was sleeping. tsk.

anw, i'm feeling much better. wahahahaha.

ok. back to my assignment. blog later.

someone come pamper me please. i'm down with flu from ivy. sobbbbbbbs.

i want to be pampered. hai. i never got pampered much from marc, maybe only when i'm sick. i want to be pampered, pampered by someone else. tsk.

going out for dinner later on.

okok. i'll be off. bye.

so tired today. it wasn't a long day, but somehow, it's simply exhausting. i've been rushing thruout, except for lesson period.

monstie was so popular in school today. i wonder why her fangs weren't showing. haha. it's good anw. lucky she's ok with humans. she's so tired, jus like me.

tmr shall be my first time officially volunteering at spca, doing mass mailout after school. hopefully i can reach on time.

my posts have been random recently, somehow i jus have the urge to blog even though there's nth to blog about.

alrighty, i'll go surfff around before editing the presentation tmr. nighty. :D

hello. tmr's sch at 12. but i'm going earlier to do the csas stuff. i have YET to do. CRAP! this is called procrastination.

anw, the photo above i think it's the best taken, decent, nice, pretty looking photo thruout this 3 years. ok. i'm going to wash this photo out. wahahaha. finally, a photo i can place in my collection. it's taken on the day when we went butter fact, baby's virgin clubbing experience.

went to simpang bedok for dinner earlier on. nice.

monstie should be going off next week or a bit later if everything goes out well tmr. hopefully. i'm going to miss her. but she has to go sometime. i guess the 2 months i told mum is up, soon. oh yah, you know, baby has baby rash, puppy apparently has puppy rash. it was a nightmare trying to apply medication for her. i'm blessed if i can survive a round of medication application without having bitemarks all over me.

anw, nighty.

anw. i wasn't talking abt marc yest. it was some other friend.

school was like 45 mins today. kinda waste of time. went to check out how much my ipod cost. omg. it's worth like 40 bucks. ffffff. how to get itouch. sobs. anyone selling itouch or iphone tell me plsss. thank you. :D

oh yah. i hate durians. hate it to the core. everytime my dad buys durian, wadever i eat will have the tinge of durian odour. crap. even the subway double chocolate cookie has the taste of durian. disgusting. everytime i want to give kinderbueno to baby& darling, i always have to say the same thing: "sorry ahhh, my dad jus bought durian last night, so the choco has that smell." everytime they'll know what i say whenever i give them something chilled. ahhhh.

ok. enough of complaining. i'm going of to watch my show alr. :D

p.s: baby, pls tell me how everything went huh!

chuck and blair is just modern version of some classic fairytale where lovers just dun end up together no matter how close it is. omg. it's infuriating. like f. well, i finished season 2.

i guess some people just never chose to tell the truth. they continue to lie, even after so long. i'm not an idiot. i know how to differentiate. seems like everything has been the same. for you and me, i'm still naive enough to believe at that point. the truth it there. i'm glad they did whatever they did.

how naive can someone get.

anw, i think i'm developing phobia, expectations too, i'm suffocating. things will be better.

skipped lab today due to gastric. it has been bothering me for quite some time since school started. i get it every now& then. went to the doc after lec. he told me that i may need to go for scope if it continues. something's wroonnnngggg. oh well. it's really irritating when i feel awful after every lunch in school. maybe i'm eating too fast or too much. but, oh well, let's see how things go. i can't imagine something sticking up my arse or down my throat. whahaha. sounds wrong, but it is something that could happen if i go for scope.

ok. i'll be off to do something. toodles.

hey hey hey.

ok. i didn't do my csas stuff, neither did i do my saprn tutorial. i was busy watching my shows online. i was stucked infront of the lappie from 11 to 5. well. at least i found some website where i can finish gg. :D

somehow, the world is so small. everyone seems to know each other somehow. well, at least baby proved to me that the world really is small. am i right or am i right? wahahaha.

anw. everyone has been asking me why my is email add like that. i was only 13 when i created it. so. i can't think of anything better or more decent. i figured it'll be troublesome, so i didn't want to change& i won't change it. but i guess i'll need a new one soon before i start my internship. at least one that doesn't sound chilidsh.

very random post. i really wanted to do my csas stuff when i logged on. but somehow, the microsoft trial period is over. like f. jus when i have the mood to do stuff.

random people i dun expect somehow has been chat with me recently. maybe my msn wasn't there for nth afterall. haha. ok.

i'm going off. nth much to blog abt alr. long day tmr. oh yah. hopefully, we can finally use our locker tmr. love yall. :D

i was fast. or so i thought.

i was chasing after bus after mahjong session last night. seriously i tot i got the correct side& lucky me to get on the last bus. who knows, when i settled down, crap. i took it from the wrong side. ivy& some other guy was busy laughing at me.

ok. i'm going to do the csas thing& saprn tut after my brunch. :D