Lifeless.

I'm supposed to be extremely broke this month to the extent where I'll need to shamelessly ask mummy and daddy for money to survive the rest of my month. But I just realized I've been pigging out at home after work, so I haven't had the chance to become that broke.

Daddy was asking me if I needed extra money this morning and I replied him saying, I'm not going out to spend money, I don't need any. If only I was this lazy to head out/ more thrifty in the past, money woes wouldn't bug me now.

Apart from losing my social life as a result of my pigging-out sessions after work on my couch and gaining mass while doing so, I'm really, extremely thrifty now. As in, I'm so unwilling to spend money (or maybe the fact is, I have no money to spend) whenever I'm out shopping. So unlike me. How I wish I was like that in the past. If I was, I'd be overseas studying right now. Hur, but what's spent is spent, I shall not dwell on it. I shall just channel my earnings into funding for my lens, holidays and paying billllls.

Ironically, I'm so thrifty this month to the extent that I feel the need to spend some money. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH! This sounds stupid I know. My hands are getting itchy (with help from sam), I'm like just a click away from buying stuff online.

Done ranting.

Scorpios.

We're both scorpios and I understand where you're coming from. But I just can't accept the fact that you're back with him, yet again. Life can get lonely at times, but he's not the only option you have. Why do you always go back to the same point and end up regretting?

It's becoming a cycle. Tell me if I'm wrong.. You'll look for comfort after breaking up with him and eventually fall in love with the person. After a few months, somehow or rather, you get in contact with him and decide to dump your comfort food and get back with him. You'll start acting weird before breaking up. it's the second time this is happening.

I really trusted you when you told me things got weird with your comfort food. I hate it when you lie to me. I'd rather you be honest with me. Yes, I'll flare up but at least you're honest with me. Don't tell me that breaking up with your comfort food has nothing to do with him. Getting back with him in such a short time after breaking up with comfort food isn't some overnight thing. So please just stop lying to me. I give up on your relationship matters, don't treat me like some fool and lie to me. I know when you're lying.

So I'm guessing he's just too important in your life to the extent, you'd rather risk our friendship once again. I understand now how much Ivy and I mean to you.

Criticism

I won't escape criticism or rather, I can't. Because I simply can't do nothing, say nothing or be nothing. I am something.

I gladly welcome criticisms. But, be better than me before criticising. I'll get fucking pissed off, so don't ruin my day. Thanks.