went butter factory last night. spent most of the time queing. bad. anyways. photos should be up soon, with ivy. now i know why my sis always say ladies night is fake. it's all guys. seriously. anyways. called it a night early- as usual. had bad gastric even though i only had a shot. but the music there was nice.

i wonder how baby is. left her with jeremy. hopefully she got home fine. ok. i'm a bad friend. i'm sorry baby.

x men anyone?

i had a wierd dream i think.

longgg weekend ahead. i'll be working on sat, full. visit me ahhhh! sat is the most boring shift ever.

i wanna get an i touch. i wonder how much my i pod nano is worth now. hmmmm.

did i mention, i want to try get my attachment position at underwater world. i think it's kinda cool& something along the line where i originally wanted for myself. dolphins& dugongs, here i come!!! (hopefully) another cool thing about this attachment is that you have to have diving cert. i'm so going to take it this coming term break. wahahahahaha. another wish completed.

my bad, i skipped lecture yest.

anyways, i think i'm going for a nap. so tired.

oh my god.

call me crazy. after getting a near to 1st degree sun burn, i was basking in in sun yet again. well, consolation for myself, i did apply sun block. so i guess today's session wasn't bad. tempted by jin to go. like after so loooooonggg. hopefully my new piercing doesn't get infected. i've been cleaning it like some person with ocd.

i did enjoy my day with all their company.

anws, i finally dota-ed yest night. i managed to get some kills. but my glory only lasted for a game. they went off to have supper so i tagged along. jin accompanied me home to get my stuff then cabbed over to his place. i didn't really sleep for the whole night. well, last night i think i managed to appreciate the man-u's last minute goals. seriously, all 5 goals scored during second half.

ok. i think i'm going to my lala land soon. i think i'd still be in lala land if not for my missing bed sheet. i'm simply too lazy to do anything today. i'm suppose to bath monstie but i can't even keep my eyes wide open for long. so tired. i still have some assignments to do. ahhhhhhhh!

ok. i think i'll go off& rot until my bed sheet's ready for me.

on a sidenote, i decided to stop being fake. no more trouble washing hair or drying hair.wahahahahaha.

hihi.

i'm in pain.

i'm burnt. i think it's almost 1st degree burn. but i think i'm experienced in getting burnt so i dun really bother to think bout the pain that much.

anyways. i'm figuring out how to load pics onto facebook. i feel like deleting my facebook account.

i'm contemplating whether to seriously go for osip. so many things holding me back. no. actually, there's only my sis's wedding. someone has to be here to help her prepare since fiona won't be in sg then. hai. africa. i want. seriously. i've been thinking of it since yr 1. i want to go africa. but i feel that if i really wan it, i'll work things out. i will. that's what kept me going. i will go there for sip or not.

it's time for closure. it's long enough.

i tot i would take a very long time to heal. but apparently, i managed to do it earlier then expected. i admit i still think of the past. but it doesn't hurt thinking of it anymore. i think up till now, i still wish that you never existed in my life. if i hadn't gone for the band camp, we wouldn't even have met. then i wouldn't have lost so much during the year& a half. many things have been taken for granted. many things just happened that made a mark in my life. but i think these just never belonged to me. you never belonged to me. much of it was just a mistake i refused to let go. i gave you my heart but you didn't treasure it, returning me a broken, tattered one. i mended it& i swear nobody but myself can ever abuse it. i'm glad you gave it all up. so much stuff i have learnt. dun give out your heart so easily. dun give your trust too early. dun be too forgiving. always reserve love for yourself, love yourself more than anyone else unless you're prepared to share it. never fence yourself from the outside world. now i understand why they always say love yourself more than anyone. so much has been taken away from me. you have to believe in karma. it'll get back to you someday.

i'm glad we bid our goodbyes as couple. hopefully, well, i know we still can be friends.

moving on, i'm looking for my opened door of happiness. i think i've ever mentioned of a quote from hellen keller,
"when a door of happiness closes, another opens, people don't see the it because they dwell on the closed door for too long missing out on the open one."
well, it's not word for word, but something like that.

end of this chapter of my life.

life can be a bitch& i believe in karma. it'll befall on you when you least expect it.

alrighty. nights.