Life is just too unfair. Feels like I'm the only one suffering from karma tho it's both our decision. Fuck you.
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
New.
It's been a week since my first day at zoo. A tiring but nonetheless fruitful week. I've finally doing something I like. Working at the zoo is actually very much of a challenge to me but something I've been expecting. Honestly, things that are happening there ain't my forte, not something I'm super familiar with. Yes I was exposed to all these before but it's a totally different world there.
After all the work experiences I've been thru, I'm kinda ashamed to say that I haven't really been good at any. I always have the unaccomplished feeling whenever I leave my old workplace. It's like being a failure at whatever I do. I fear that the same thing would happen this time round. I hate the feeling of being unable to complete tasks given to me independently. When such situations occur, distrust will eventually occur making work difficult. It's especially difficult now that I'm working in a male dominated environment when they don't trust women enough to handle dangerous equipments. I need a steeper learning curve so I wouldn't be the white elephant standing around. I need to learn and prove to myself and others that I'm as capable of doing things independently.
Work aside, there's really nothing much to update. Staying at granny's is boring as expected. If not for my sis's lappy, I wouldn't be blogging here right now. I've been contemplating on whether to get an ipad since I don't own any lappy. I super depressed with the fact that I really splurged so much this month, I've gotta tap into my "emergency" savings for the KL trip next week and spendings for the rest of the month. There goes my plan to never touch that account.
I know it's a wordy post as usual. I haven't been using my camera recently, fungus is growing out soon. Need to utilize it real soon. Hoping that MPN peeps can arrange the long awaited glamor pictorial soon! :)
Till then, Ciao!
After all the work experiences I've been thru, I'm kinda ashamed to say that I haven't really been good at any. I always have the unaccomplished feeling whenever I leave my old workplace. It's like being a failure at whatever I do. I fear that the same thing would happen this time round. I hate the feeling of being unable to complete tasks given to me independently. When such situations occur, distrust will eventually occur making work difficult. It's especially difficult now that I'm working in a male dominated environment when they don't trust women enough to handle dangerous equipments. I need a steeper learning curve so I wouldn't be the white elephant standing around. I need to learn and prove to myself and others that I'm as capable of doing things independently.
Work aside, there's really nothing much to update. Staying at granny's is boring as expected. If not for my sis's lappy, I wouldn't be blogging here right now. I've been contemplating on whether to get an ipad since I don't own any lappy. I super depressed with the fact that I really splurged so much this month, I've gotta tap into my "emergency" savings for the KL trip next week and spendings for the rest of the month. There goes my plan to never touch that account.
I know it's a wordy post as usual. I haven't been using my camera recently, fungus is growing out soon. Need to utilize it real soon. Hoping that MPN peeps can arrange the long awaited glamor pictorial soon! :)
Till then, Ciao!
Monday, May 02, 2011
First day.
It's a fresh new chapter from tommorrow onwards.
It's kinda scary to face new things but I strongly believe that this change is for the better. New chapter, new beginnings. I'll make this one a good one! I always like to remind myself that change is the only constant. So why fear change when we can happily embrace it?
It's kinda scary to face new things but I strongly believe that this change is for the better. New chapter, new beginnings. I'll make this one a good one! I always like to remind myself that change is the only constant. So why fear change when we can happily embrace it?
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