Tuesday, December 30, 2008

hey!

i'm blogging out of bordem. i seriously don't know where to go online. crapppppppppppp.

anyways, i just came back from CDS lesson. it wasn't that bad lah. as long as i'm involved.

i'm supposed to meet D for dinner today. but postponed to tmr. hai. store meeting tmr. wonder how long it will be for this time. but still, something to look forward to after meeting. consolation. wonder where we'll be going for new yr's eve dinner. :D hoping it's some place nice.

tioman! i'm coming. wait for me. although i've yet to ask mummy.

ok. i shall go off.

Sunday, December 28, 2008

hi guys.

holidays officially ended. crap. but my holiday mood kinda just started, or it didn't even start. i was jus too busy working or missing dear during the hols. crap.

anways. spent christmas with dear the whole day. i think. then met up with jin, cw& bird for lan. wanted to catch a movie but all was filled. went bendemeer for dinner. wanted to head home after dinner. but decided i wasn't satisfied with time spent with dear during the hols, i ended up at safra snooker place. kawai, jin& us played till around 3. we were supposed to get a treat from kawai but i was too tired so headed to d's place& knocked out.

oh yah. wahah. according to d he was surprised that i "upgraded" his pressie. i got a blazer in return. wahaha. he accompanied me to get it. :D

anways, d decided to cook after soooo long on fri. so he invited his friend over to have lunch while i was busy finishing my gossip girls(XOXO) :D after which, they went off to ride& i headed to machese's 18th celebration. chatted, ate then left after 2 hours. didn't wait for all of them to come.

sat. went down to store to meet dear then went over to bugis to pay d's "debts" then i finally convinced him to accompany me to get blazer for new year( but i wore it today. hmmm.) he even payed for it. but then, he's suppose to give me 200 for my pressies loh. heh. i decided that i didn't need those stuffs that i wanted earlier. so, i just got that blazer. i'm too lazy to get cny clothes. seriously. no money. after getting my blazer, went over to d's place, got him to change& came over my place.

today. woke up earllyyy for training at HQ. sian. there goes my lovely sunday. training from 8.30 to 4+. abandoned d after training& headed over to carole's place for themed party. lazy to fill in much details. when i get the photos, you'll know what happened. :D

school tmr. hai. i seriously need to bucckkkk up. hopefully i didn't fail badly for term test. not looking forward to tmr. i still need to complete a freaking proposal which was supposed to be done last week( planned to lah).

hmmmm. anyways. i'm to lazy to type out full form for dear so i cut it to d. others call their bf baby, short cut b. sounds totally correct leh. but typing d to represent bf sounds& seem wierd. nvm. i shall start the trend. or maybe the trend started just that i've yet to realise. anyways. this is crap, sorry wasted your time reading this paragraph.

anyways, you realise i type a lot of anyways. crap.

everything with d has been better then ever. i really hope, i believe it's the start of everything i hoped for. :D thank you for really trying. i can't find the correct moment or the correct way to express this. but really, thank you. love you. :D

sorry, i'm a little obsessed with my bf now. he's been away too much this month. i just miss him lurr. :D forgive me for my current obsession.

anways, (i'm saying anyways again! crapppp) prawning on new yr's eve anyone?

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

hello. i've not been updating. reason being, i'm just too busy rotting. heh. my bad.

sat worked. met dear after work for supper.

sun. rotted. went to ps wanting to donate blood but failed due to low iron level. siann. Q for almost 1 hr plusss then went shopping. heh. bought my first high waisted shorts. :D then went to meet jin& gang. watched eee mun. nice show. seriously. expectedly funny.

mon. jin's 19th. i kinda forgot what i did in the morning. met him& gang at marina K-box at 7 plus. sang till 3 in the morning. i almost died. anyways, aldrich was busy entertaining us cause he works there. he was busy taking food for us. heh. aftermath was terrible.

tues. after barely 4 hours of sleep, i gotta replace fiona to accompany grandpa for medical checkup. i almost died again. from queing for number till the end of everything, it took almost 5 hours. crap. but lucky grandpa's hypertension is better lah. i realised he's been taking medicine for so long, he already memorised the exact time& number of pills to eat alr. he eats like 7 to 8 medicine daily. so imagine. doc added another medicine to reduce his hypertension. slept throughout the afternoon. woke up& rotted. watched gossip girls. slept

today. woke up, had brunch, went to sim lim to get dear's stuff. headed to china town to get some brochures for malaysia trip next month (hopefully). then headed home. had christmas dinner.

something's weird somewhere. dear went to m'sia. i'm alone again. siannnnn. anyways, he'll be back anytime. hoping to go over his place later to surprise him with his christmas pressie. heh. :D

anways,

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

i'm watching twilight. ashamed to say, watching it illegally, online with the super bad quality. actually, it's not that bad afterall lah. just that the streaming became very slow at the end, the part where i'm anticipating the most. idiot. it's ok. i'm still going to theatres for another round really soon. wahahaha.

i kinda found out why the movie makes me feel complete. you know whenever i read a book, i'll tend to picture everything nicely, perfectly. the only thing i can't picture is the characters themselves. their faces to be exact. haha. it makes me feel happy, complete.

alright. i'll be gone. TC.
it's so cold~~~~
hey hey hey. yest was one tiring day. anyways, i tried uploading the marley& me trailer but it just can't seem to work.

let me start with mon. went over to airport around midnight to get dear. yeh! he's finally back from japan. wahahahaha. my bordem will be over. but. i'll be bored again from coming sunday to thurs. he's going m'sia. crap. anyways, went back to his hse after that. woke up kinda early later on. used the web. wanted to watch bolt originally, but due to delaysssss, we went to eat& lan instead. anyways, other then watching twilight(again) and marlet& me, i've no mood for other movies. i've got twilight cravingssss. haha. anyone watch with me again? hmmmm. reached home after lan around 12 plus 1am.

tues. woke up after barely 4 hours of sleep & headed to work for freaking 9 hours. i almost dropped dead with my remaining energy& excruciating pain coming from my leg. first, i'm like having arthritis. my knee hurts on& off whenever it likes. second, my socks were way too small yest. they're those individual toe-d socks. freak. my nails feels as if they were dropping off the moment i took it off. i swear i'm never going to wear these type of socks ever. ever again. anyways. went sim lim with dear after work to get his computer stuffs. concidentally, his friend was there& helped him bargain price& even offered to set up his com. i wonder if he's lucky or lucky. he suggested going home to cook, but ended up playing lan. again. played till around midnight& headed to his hse to wash up& get some stuff then headed over to my place.

dear was nice to me last night. wahahaha. because i was freaking tired& was having serious mood swing. i wished last night was the beginning of my wish. :D heh.

alright. take care peeps. :D

should i go find dear later on?

Monday, December 15, 2008

hello.

i watched TWILIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

no words can express my euphoriaaaaa. haha. i'm so watching it again. seriously. it's my first time watching a movie based on a book i've read. it's nice to see whatever i've read on screen. i've been dreaming of such vampire romance movie since i've started reading. like finally, after months of waiting, it came true. heh.

anyways, i've completed 6 out of 10 books mentioned in the earlier post. starting on the 7th. but, i'm pissed with the 7th book's binding. seriously. some idiot stapled the front and back as the whole book cover dropped off including the spine. i can't fully open the book. irritating.

dear's back like finally. i've got my mickey mouse huge gloves, adding to my collection. :D heh. i think, i'm going to collect huge gloves all around. heh. although i don't really use or hug them, it's still nice to see them on the bed. :D

anyways, i'm looking forward to a new movie: MARLEY& ME. i'll upload the trailer tmr or some other time. it's freaking funny. heh.

till then, tc peeps!

pls watch twilight!!!!!

Friday, December 12, 2008

hello! finished my last paper today. it was crap. but then, i could only concentrate on what was happening afterwards. haha. shopping in short.

went to sim lim square directly after school to get my DS cartridge. got it at 80 bucks. couldn't really be bothered to ask around. so just got it at 80 bucks since wei kun told me a more pricey choice. lucky i was with sylvia, she didn't force me to ask around. i seriously hate it. heh.


afterwhich, went to bugis street. finally got a hooodddiieeee. wahaha. after so long.


next stop was work place to check my schedule. ishak was sick, so didn't feel like slacking for long. waited for ivy to call and headed to wisma. wanted to find lp, but i think she wasn't working. no fate. anyways, after that, headed to cine for my only meal of the day. heh. ivy's belated birthday treat. walked around town then headed home. :D


which should i get?


this?

(in red, anyways, it's called 4 million dollar home)

or this? red or black?


heh. nice. i'm going to get someone to sponser me. wahahah.

alright. i'll go wash up& read my book. heh. take care peeps. tell me which one to get kk. :D

why do i feel like you& i are in the same plight or it's as if you're speaking up for me? i wonder.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

hi guys. i haven't been studying. just sleeping around.

i miss dear.

watching the day the earth stood still with jin& uncle bird bird tmr. considered 1 more paper to go tmr. friday's paper shouldn't even be in existance. seriously. that's why i'm going for movies tmr. actually the movie should be on sunday. but i didn't wake jin up. so, didn't go, went to ivy's hse instead to study. wasn't that fruitful. but still i did study. her family was making dumplings, so we had dumplingssssssssss for dinner. wahaha. i had one with a glove finger inside. haha.

i think i'm just going to roughly read through tmr's CD1 & i'll be off to bed. heh.

ahhhhhhhhhh. i miss dear!!!!!!!!

first, i can't wait for dear to come back. i still haven't really figured out when to go fetch him.
second, i can't wait for DEC 18. TWILIGHT! i decided not to go for any sneaks. i won't be able to get the tickets either. :D

i hope things will be better when dear comes back.

kk. i shall be back to watching the little nonya. wahaha.

Saturday, December 06, 2008

hi. i'm finally printing my notes just few days before my term test. hmmmmmm. feel like it's simply waste of ink. sian. for my grades, i have to.

next week is war for me. crap. i'll either be updating a lot or not updating at all. you'll know what i'm doing if i'm updating a lot. hah.

dear went off to japan yest. i'm jealous. hai. next year will be my turn. maybe i can visit nan in shanghai. free accomodation i think. if not, i can visit yen chia in uk provided my bank account can support me. :D

i just took some jab. my butt hurts. hah.

my hols should be busy with work. but i've yet to plan how to celebrate christmas& new year. jin's birthday coming up also. luckily it's after term test.

oh yah. pay out yest. including training pay i've earned 500. :D wahaha. actually i didn't earn that much. considering i still have to pay ivy, i'm still as broke as ever.

i got nintendo DS from kaveen. heh. thanks huh. but, i still need to get some card, banned in s'pore. crap. oh well. at least i have the DS.

ok. that's all for today. i think i'm off to take a nap after finishing printing my notes. my printer suck at printing coloured stuff. better than a noisy printer. hah. take care peeps.

[edited]

i was looking for books to read during the hols. heh. i'm in love with the argeneau vampire series. :D i've fetish for vampiry stuff. haha.

[1]a quick bite
[2]love bites
[3]single white vampire
[4]tall, dark& hungry

[5]a bite to remember
[6]bite me if you can
[7]the accidental vampire
[8]vampires are forever
[9]vampire interrupted
[10]the rouge hunter

*italic ones are completed. i've got 5 more to go. :D wahaha. my hols will be filled alr. hah.

Friday, December 05, 2008

hello.

for the first time, i'm blogging at dear's hse. he finally has internet. like seriously. finally.

work was freaking tiring yet fun at the same time. for the 2 full hours. woooooohoo. i was loud. haha. everybody had fun. the aftermath wasn't that bad. i seriously didn't expect sooooo many customers. oh well, i underestimated the power of after-work-office-crowd. closing was easy as we had all partners closing. haha. alex's last day today. hmmm.

i'm surprised. i think dear reads my blog. hmmm.

i made carole laugh. anon- stands for annonymus. crapp.

nights.

Sunday, November 30, 2008

i refused/ refuse to talk to them. i need money. i'll get the money first then make them chase me out. crap. i hate life now. now i'm moodless to study for my fucking term test. i'm fucking vulgar these days. crap. they can chase me out for all i care. i'd rather sleep on the streets than to pretend that i'm good at home. sickening. i hate it. i need to work more. hmmmmm. 2 more week then i'll be working everyday. seriously. i will. i need money. i'm so pisseddddddddddddddd with reality. how did i get into this deep shit anyways. stupidly because of a key. fuck. see. this is what you get when you get perfectionist parents. everything must be perfect, flawless. i'll be good for 2 weeks since dear is going to japan for 2 weeks. i be good for that 2 weeks.

anyways, i didn't expect my blog to have readers. anon, thanks huh. :D

i think i shall go off for nap, to my unrealistic happy dreams.

Saturday, November 29, 2008

i'm homeless soon.
i'm serious.
i need a room for rent.
anyone?

because of a stupid key. i'm in trouble. i didn't plan to forget my key when i left the fucking hse. i didn't want to wake anyone up so i fucking left. what's your fucking problem. i'm fucking stupid for not bringing key out lah. i'm fucking stupid to not call the hse phone at 3 in the morning to wake everyone up to open the fucking door for me.

i'm fucking pissed off. i hate going to school. but you dun have to fucking worry because i won't waste your fucking money. i'll complete my fucking diploma.

i'm fucking moving out of this fucking perfect hse.

i'm not fucking perfect like you guys. I"M NOT. fuck off .

fucking perfectionist. fucked up people. fuck.

and you don't know how to fucking put down the fucking phone after fucking scolding me.

i'm going to get my fucking freedom i want. i won't be like your other daughters. i am not them. i am myself. i want to be free. i can't always be the daughter you want, you expect. just because my fucking sisters are smart and good, doesn't mean i have to be. you don't fucking say anything. but i know you fucking expect me to do as good as them. but the fucking reality is that i can't. i hate studying. i'm fucking stupid, just like what fucking daddy said. i don't care how much to dote on me. i don't fucking care anymore. i don't want to fucking care anymore. i'm not going to pretend and be uncomfortable at the fucking perfect home anymore. i'm not.

i'm moving out. period.

Thursday, November 27, 2008

burnin' up. literally, i think.

i don't believe in fucking god. he is never fucking fair. never.

i'm back to normal, depressing normal. mentally dead for the moment with another report to complete by tmr.

anyways. lab ended at 12 but waited for loveyys to come over to slack before their presentation. but they took a bit long to complete the drafts and everything, so i just went home alone around 3. lala land- i visited immediately when i reached home. watched teevee till 10 then came online. i'm still procrastinating, not doing my report.

school till 5 tmr then work till 2.30am. i don't know how the hell soft cock(ISHAK) arrange schedule. i'm doing closing on fri. sat, i'm suppose to do opening at 7. crappppp. i'm not motivated to do or request anything at all. i shall just die working this weekend. hai. i don't even know why i'm doing this. it's not as if i really enjoy ppl talking some language i dun understand around me most of the time. i really hate it. i'm not being racist. it's just me.

i'm still waiting you know. can you bring me out for movie this sat? i'm not invisible. you dun want to care about me anymore? than bring me someone who can. i've yet to reach the breaking point. but my threshold is reaching soon. i'm not invisible. i still exist. can you still see me in your eyes, in your heart? i wish i can just disappear from your life& make things easier for you. but i can't. i really wish. i want to. but god just doesn't make it happen. my wishes never came true. NEVER!

hai. how many times must i be lost in my life. i'm only 18, not even half way thru. maybe i am. you know i always wonder, every minute, someone in this world dies. would i be one of them soon? you know the feeling of being lost, literally lost. when there aren't even crossroads presented infront of you. you're just left somewhere dark, maybe some forest. can someone really bring you the light, show you the pathway out of the darkness? i thought this exists. but the light somehow disappears halfway thru my journey, leaving me stranded, having to start all over again. hope is always lost. lost. lost.

how many times can a heart be broken? will someone die from a broken heart? i think i will. it's so hard to mend things back. i hate the feeling of being left alone to mend back the pieces when you're the one responsible for breaking it. you should be the one mending back the pieces, not me.

i want my presence made known to you. can you tell me how? you're always drawing the line there, just when i feel on the brim of being pampered and loved again. you always draw that invisible border, pushing me away from you. invisible again. sometimes i wish i never existed. when i don't exist, such things won't exist. things would be better. i wonder what it would be like if i didn't exist from the beginning. maybe, i wasn't meant to be. you'll never know.

is there such thing as forever? maybe it's because i don't believe in forever, that's why things are turning out like this.

i think if i really have to put it down, walk away, i'll hate you. i can't help having these feelings. i tell myself every single time i have this feeling that only i can feel the hatred, what's the point of hating. but, at the end of the day, hatred still exists in me. why? i believe in karma. so why do i still hate? i'm s sentimental person, i take small little things seriously, take it to heart. it doesn't help much. i can just die like that. so many things to handle in my life. i wonder why people encourage multi tasking? it's so taxing to multi task. i can't do it.

in short, i miss you. can you come back to me? can your heart come back to me? can you mend my broken heart or is this really the time to out things down alr? i refuse to. there must be a solution to it. it's just so not fair to me when i've done and given in so much and it always turn out like this. you guys just like to fucking walk away when you feel like it without any warning, leaving me to pick up the pieces, leaving me to cry myself to sleep. i'm tired of it. my life mainly revolves around you. i can spend my whole day doing nothing but stare at you sleeping. i can. i feel stupid doing it when things are in this situation.

where did my door of happiness go? when will i see it open again? open up my eyes.

will you even bother about my existence?

bback to reality, back to my report.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

hellos again. i'm happyyyyyyyyy. i'm making use of my time to study before term test hits. seriously. i need to catch up on my grades. i've think i received 3 letters last week. crapp.

anyways, i'm thinking of what to do for hols alr.
  1. work. (money for future holiday funds.)
  2. clean my room
  3. get new bed/ sofa in my room
  4. chillax :D
  5. movies ( TWILIGHT!!!!)
  6. christmas &/or new year dinner :D

i think that's all that i can squeeze during the hols, not forgetting my 2 loved ones. :D

oh yah, i was surfing around on the net and found out that TWILIGHT premieres in U.S today. wahhhh. crap. i've still gotta wait for another month. i shall not be tempted to look for it online. i also found the upcoming book, the one with edwards perspective, it's called midnight sun. my sis and i were contemplating on the title of the new book. seems like we guessed quite accurately. haha.

alrights, i'm going off to bed soon.

"And so the lion fell in love with the lamb.." - edward cullen

nights! i love my dear. :D

Monday, November 24, 2008

hello!
everything's back to normal alr.
school sucks big time.
assignments dueeeeeee.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

i really miss you badly.
please don't give up.
stop fucking ignoring me.
love me again.
please.
i know you still do.

Friday, November 07, 2008

i'm still waiting for your decision.
can you at least make it before my birthday.

2 more days.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

i miss it.
i wonder how it will be this yr.
suddenly i'm missing everything.
sometimes i wished i could live in the past again.
but it's only a wish.

talking to ivy today made me realised i've really moved on with my life, forgetting the important details we've had. oh well, everything changed, we've moved on. it feels sad to forget those details, but somehow, in other way it feels like i'm ready for more in life.

13 more days.

Sunday, October 19, 2008


You are The Empress
Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.
The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents, beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.
The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.


i got this from phiyornah's blog. did it for fun. i agree with the part where it says about her temper nature. heh. :D

i'm jealous of phiyornah. because she gotta go to sentosa. i intended to go today but planned cancelled due to low people count. hai. i shall go next week or so.

ok. i shall be gone. :D

hello. PHIYORNAHHHHHHHH!!!! i'm finally posting up the long dued photos as promised, before school starts.

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1st picture in HK.

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sorry for the poor quality.
my camera seriously suck.

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i look like zommmbieeeee.


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i'm taking picture with ghost.
the greenish effect is due to the combination of multi-coated spects & flash.

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he got so pissed off we ended up quarelling.

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he's more zi lian than me i tell you.

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i officially hate my camera. it sucks! i'm changing it soon.

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(i didn't get a chance to ride on one of those, but they have the bigger ones like those newer ones in sg. the transport there isn't cheap.)


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i feel as if i'm in some hk drama. haha.

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Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting typical day in hk.

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i wonder how distorted will i get if i rollllll down this escalator.

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taking my virgin ride on the longest escalator. heh.

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this is like the longest escalator ever.

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old school can! ice cream truck. mr softee somemore.

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some night market. (nice shopping, nice moon. :D)

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i like this pic. :D

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cheese. he's tired. seriously.

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he's wearing MY cap due to him having bad hair day. idiot.

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take 5 during spree @ mirama.

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seriously. the place is filled with couples.
if only singapore has this type of place.

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we're one of the lovey dovey~ haha
kowloon bay. night view.

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juicy juicy juicy cha siew. freaking nice i tell you!

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now i know why birds are stupid. ( bird brain)
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presenting to you goose.
it looks exactly like duck right!
but the difference is the presence of crown of goose.
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mua chee. hong kong style.

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his added butt bag. heh.

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i like this pic. wahah.
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good bye hk!

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i discovered something while editing.
we didn't take any photos with his parents.
only this picture includes them.
haha.

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famous HK airport.

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my short hand. crap.

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that marks the end of our first overseas trip. :D

anyways, sylvia reccommended me this photo editing programme. quite cool& idiot proof. but i don't have much time to edit much, so i just compiled a few pictures& edited some of the pictures above.

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school's starting tmr. looking forward to this term. i seriously have to buckkkkk up. it could be hectic term for me even though the schdule looks merciful, but with work, it won't be that easy. but, i'll learn to balance my time. JIA YOU! :D