Wake me up when October ends.

Well, October is ending. 2 more months till the start of a new chapter, 2011. It's only 2 months away, I should start making my 2011 resolutions soon. I've been making them in the past few years and surprisingly, they do get fulfilled. Not all, but some (better than none). 

So many things will be happening in the coming weeks. Or should I say, the most important thing is happening in less than 16 hours in exact. If things goes smoothly, It'll be the best birthday pressie I'll be getting for my 20th. It would really make so much difference in my life, you have no idea how much I want it.

Tmr will be one busy day. Please make it a good start. And, I know what I'll be dressing up for halloween alr. So looking forward to it! Seriously, after a year of waiting, it's finally here! :D

Harroween!

My leave has been approved. Meaning, I can party my weekend away! It feels like eons since I last partied. I always remind myself, I'm simply paying the price of the freedom I've had and will have in the future. I will survive this no-partying-because-of work period.

The other day, I was watching some drama on tv and this phrase kept on popping up on the back on my mind. "Change is the only constant.". How true is it. People change, situation change, weather change, everything changes. But I wonder how much have I changed.

Anyways, so many things coming up in the really near future. I must prep myself for what's coming, be it good or bad.

Very extremely random post I figure.

5 things I would do when I get pissed.

People do really weird things to manage their anger. Some times, I'll wonder how can one be temper-less. It's like a really impossible thing for me. I have to admit i do have a really bad and unmanagable anger. But it used to be real bad in the past, it's considered much subtle now.

#1
I'll sleep my temper away. That's the best I can do. Best as in, I simply can't vent it on anyone around me thus not hurting anyone with my words of anger. Most of the time, I just wake up happily and issues gets resolved miraculously during my sleep. Wonders of sleeping.

#2
I'll torture/ pamper my hair. My hair is the only thing that I feel represents me. It's my life. Haha. Sounds very drama but true. Close friends know how much and frequent I head down to salon to do something to my hair. New haircut/ perm/ colour really makes my day (of course provided it turns out nice). So it's on one of my to-do list whenever I'm pissed or sad.

#3
I'll shut up. Literally. I'll shut myself from everyone else. I'll be living in a world of my own for that moment. I remember how I used to hurt my ex when I vented my anger on him and how he taught me to manage it. Ever since, I'll just keep really quiet (which friends find really scary, partially because of my extremely black-like-tar face) and let my temper simmer before I make any comments. Most of the time, I'm reasoning out who's right/ wrong, or just reason out the situation and what move I shall make next. Sometimes I really find that this is a bad habit, but I just can't help it.

#4
Music therapy. I guess music really is soothing. Sometimes, I think music solves everything because the lyrics simply dipicts the situation we're in.

#5
Retail therapy. Oh well, which girl wouldn't find retail therapy a good form of anger management? It solves everything whenever the euphoric feeling overwhelms you. (Minus the aftermath of over swiping your plastics)

Breakky.

I just ask for a nice sunday breakfast with my family, uninterrupted. Period.

Bullshit.

I've found out something. I'm damn good at coming up with bullshit to treat others when they bullshit around me. So, today is a day filled with bullshit.

Hate.

Hatred is the emotion everyone should fear most. No, not the one being hated but the one hating should fear it. Because it'll destroy you.

I can't allow myself to drain off every single drip of energy and passion I have. Yes, I miss the past but I need to move forward and stop dreading life. Sometimes, living in the moment may not be as bad as I think it is. No futher plans means no future worries. Live by the hours, by the day, let things come and go like they always do. No matter how strong one person can be, how much emotion anyone can hide, there's only so much we can do to appease that worry or anger or any other emotion. So why frown when life's so short. I'm too dehydrated recently, so don't even think of crying. It doesn't help things.

There is only so much I can take. My way of anger management is to shut myself out from everyone else and think. Is it a bad thing or should I just take it out on everyone around me?

Last thing before i start a longggg day. I shouldn't let my horoscope define me so much. Scorpios are scary people. I was shocked at the facts I found out about scorpios and even more shocked to find out how much I resemble those scary descriptions of scorpios.