this is how i'm feeling now.
blogging in school. freaking tired today. headed to sentosa yest with dear& friends. it was fun after so long lurr. seriously wished i didn't have school today, or maybe at all. anyways, lab lesson only lasted 90 mins instead of the full 2 hrs. i think i'm used to lab ending so early. at least i can stone. i've yet to START studying for the test later on. crap.

my life has been filled with many last minute stuffs recently. i think i shouldn't volunteer so much when i can't complete stuff. it's so tiring. but i'm constantly tired when i've hardly done anything. why am i so tired? i think it's just something mental. sometimes, a lil bit of appreciation from you would help. most of the things that come out from you about me is only criticizms. no one is fucking perfect. you're not that perfect either, but i don't mention much about you. can't you just let me do things at my own pace and of my own thinking. i'm fucking irritated by your temper. i'm not your punching bag. scolding me whenever you like because of small little things. it's not as if i do the same thing to you. you better enjoy the party. if not i'm not going to be good to you anymore. you'll be my punching bag from there. i seriously hope you enjoy it. i did put in effort for that.

i think that's enough. tired of complaining, tired of doing anything but to sleeeeeeeep. sometimes i hope that i just die unknowingly in my sleep. have you all wondered when will you last day be& who you'll spend it with? i always think of this. but i can never come out with an answer.

i think i'm ruining myself.
i don't know what i'm doing anymore.
how?

dear's 18th is next fri.
i hope everything turns out fine.
i hope he'll enjoy it.
then i can get my wii on my 18th.
WAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHA!

i want to go prawning.
but i need to study.
i hate school!

sometimes, i admire others for their courage.
i'm nothing more then a selfish creature.
thinking of nothing else but myself.

I HATE BLACK BOARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BLACK BOARD SUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CRAP BLACK BOARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'M SO CONDEMING BLACK BOARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IRRITATING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok. done complaning. i think it's because of me wearing all black today. freaking sway can!

hello! short update before i head out to meet NCOs. wei jie is finally back. wahahaha.

lessons were crappy today. tmr will be worse with bchem quiz i have yet to complete studying. it has always been like that since .... ever. heh. i can survive it. heh. anws, i wanted to uploads some photos. but, i think something's wrong with my memory card. shall try some other time.

so, i shall go prepare alr. TC peeps!

it has been written,
"to everything there is a season,
there was a time when you loved,
there came a time when you hated.
there was a time when you felt like you wanted to kill,
now is the time for you to heal.
there was a time you were broken down,
now is the time to build yourself up.
there was a time when you were at war in your being,
now is the time to restore peace within."

it means a lot to me now.

anyways, i got this from the newspaper. this was what the judge said to the army guy who went awol. hmmmmm. thanks judge.

alrights. i wanted to post this up yest, but i got lazy. gotta go mug for fpath tmr. TC peeps.

V.S

that's why i'm loving pandas. heh.

10 promises to my dog with ivy& sylvia tmr. YEH!i'm still loving my pig. he's not here tonight, just when i'm getting used to him spending the night here. i don't like my dad for critisizing him. CRAP.

hello peeps.

it's dumb to come school for a 20 min lab lesson, then a looonnng break for 3 hours. so, out of boredem i'm here. anyways, miraculously, i mananged to squeeze into the bus this morning. wahahahahaha. i'm kinda proud of that. because normally, i won't bother to.

i think war is brewing at home. dad's unhappy with me staying out late or maybe marcus coming over to stay so frequently. it's not a maybe, it's a sure thing that he's unhappy because of that. somehow i want to prove to dad that i'm not like my sis. i won't be like them to please you. maybe you aren't expecting me to be like her, but i can feel it. marcus isn't as smart or as successful is sis's boyfriend, but he's still someone i love. please don't judge him based on whatever you know. there's a big world out there that you've yet to see.

somehow thoughts of leaving home have been in my mind recently. maybe it's because home isn't the place i want to return to anymore, especially with the pressure of exceeding unsaid expectations. damn. why are my sisters so smart and obedient. crap.

lastly, you stepped out of his life in the first place, so don't you ever dare step into his life ever again. not with me around. you do that, i'll give you hell.

alrights. i think i should be gone.

hello.

everything's back to normal now. maybe not everything. but mostly i guess. i think i'm being pulled back to happy earth. :D so long as i don't think too much, too deeply into simple things.

anyways, just got a terrier cross home for the night. first time to have a dog in my house. wahahahahaaha. hopefully my dad won't really make noise when it's not gone in the morning. the person collecting the dog, hopefully he won't be late.

alrights, there's presentation tmr morning. hopefully it'll go fine.

last thing. i hate chuieeeee (chooi).