Hooked yet again.

Now, I'm hooked to them. Total mind fuck for me. Hahaha.

And, I'm so drooling over Ian Somerhalder. Ahhhhhhh.

May today be a good day. 

Music.

I wonder if anyone can get as euphoric as me when I hear songs I love playing on the tuner. Sometimes, small things like this can make me so happy, it makes my day.

Anyways, our staycation is coming up! We're going to book a room at Siloso Beach Resort and celebrate our birthdays. So eggggcited! Thank god everything has been resolved in time. For friendship, ego has to take a step down. :D

Honestly,

I have no idea what I'll be doing a year later.
I do not want to be stuck here for the rest of my life, although I've only started work for less than 3 months.
I kinda dread coming to work without you around.
I'm starting to rely on you.
I'm pissed of with clients that come in with stupid attitude early in the morning.
I feel like killing the stupid dog who pee-ed on me yesterday.
I'm in a delima for no reason.

Okay, continue later, no inspiration.

APAD

It means, A Photo A Day. Maybe, I should start taking one a day. Make my boring life (and blog) a lil more meaningful and interesting.

I shouldn't be neglecting my D5k.

Shootouts.

Had so much fun yest playing around with my rented fisheye lens. Luckily I decided to tag along, else I wouldn't know how much more I can do with my D5k. :D

Some teasers here, check out the other photos on my FB alright!

I can't wait for next pay to get my own 50mm! Muahahahaha.

Lifeless.

I'm supposed to be extremely broke this month to the extent where I'll need to shamelessly ask mummy and daddy for money to survive the rest of my month. But I just realized I've been pigging out at home after work, so I haven't had the chance to become that broke.

Daddy was asking me if I needed extra money this morning and I replied him saying, I'm not going out to spend money, I don't need any. If only I was this lazy to head out/ more thrifty in the past, money woes wouldn't bug me now.

Apart from losing my social life as a result of my pigging-out sessions after work on my couch and gaining mass while doing so, I'm really, extremely thrifty now. As in, I'm so unwilling to spend money (or maybe the fact is, I have no money to spend) whenever I'm out shopping. So unlike me. How I wish I was like that in the past. If I was, I'd be overseas studying right now. Hur, but what's spent is spent, I shall not dwell on it. I shall just channel my earnings into funding for my lens, holidays and paying billllls.

Ironically, I'm so thrifty this month to the extent that I feel the need to spend some money. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH! This sounds stupid I know. My hands are getting itchy (with help from sam), I'm like just a click away from buying stuff online.

Done ranting.

Scorpios.

We're both scorpios and I understand where you're coming from. But I just can't accept the fact that you're back with him, yet again. Life can get lonely at times, but he's not the only option you have. Why do you always go back to the same point and end up regretting?

It's becoming a cycle. Tell me if I'm wrong.. You'll look for comfort after breaking up with him and eventually fall in love with the person. After a few months, somehow or rather, you get in contact with him and decide to dump your comfort food and get back with him. You'll start acting weird before breaking up. it's the second time this is happening.

I really trusted you when you told me things got weird with your comfort food. I hate it when you lie to me. I'd rather you be honest with me. Yes, I'll flare up but at least you're honest with me. Don't tell me that breaking up with your comfort food has nothing to do with him. Getting back with him in such a short time after breaking up with comfort food isn't some overnight thing. So please just stop lying to me. I give up on your relationship matters, don't treat me like some fool and lie to me. I know when you're lying.

So I'm guessing he's just too important in your life to the extent, you'd rather risk our friendship once again. I understand now how much Ivy and I mean to you.

Criticism

I won't escape criticism or rather, I can't. Because I simply can't do nothing, say nothing or be nothing. I am something.

I gladly welcome criticisms. But, be better than me before criticising. I'll get fucking pissed off, so don't ruin my day. Thanks.

Contradicting.

Now that I'm bidding goodbye to my teens in 2 months time, I kinda wonder why was I so eager to get rid of the teen behind my age when I was younger.


Sometimes I wonder what's the significance of removing the teen behind when I reach twenty. Why isn't it called twenteen instead? Does it mean that I totally have to give up being the youngest in the family, start supporting my parents and giving up my dreams? Once I started working, I feel the need to stop being the youngest one and start being the sensible one so that my parents can retire earlier and enjoy life. I feel even more pressure to grow up with my 20th approaching. Suddenly I dread my birthday this year. But the time will come sooner or later. So I'll still have to face the big two o soon enough. 


I guess growing up must be a painful for lessons to be learnt. Why dread this when you can embrace it? Life lessons learnt earlier could mean an smoother and easier life ahead. I need to be stronger.


Mummy, I'm sorry for getting mad at you. 

Fridays.

Finally, I've fully made use of my fridays running errands, getting things done. All my off days should be like this, not wasted away sleeping. Hehh.


I fear being too used to doing things alone now. 

Hooked.

I'm so hooked to them. And I love her quirky dressing. If only I can pull this off in SG, ppl would only see me as some crazy women. Hehehehh.