went butter factory last night. spent most of the time queing. bad. anyways. photos should be up soon, with ivy. now i know why my sis always say ladies night is fake. it's all guys. seriously. anyways. called it a night early- as usual. had bad gastric even though i only had a shot. but the music there was nice.

i wonder how baby is. left her with jeremy. hopefully she got home fine. ok. i'm a bad friend. i'm sorry baby.

x men anyone?

i had a wierd dream i think.

longgg weekend ahead. i'll be working on sat, full. visit me ahhhh! sat is the most boring shift ever.

i wanna get an i touch. i wonder how much my i pod nano is worth now. hmmmm.

did i mention, i want to try get my attachment position at underwater world. i think it's kinda cool& something along the line where i originally wanted for myself. dolphins& dugongs, here i come!!! (hopefully) another cool thing about this attachment is that you have to have diving cert. i'm so going to take it this coming term break. wahahahahaha. another wish completed.

my bad, i skipped lecture yest.

anyways, i think i'm going for a nap. so tired.

oh my god.

call me crazy. after getting a near to 1st degree sun burn, i was basking in in sun yet again. well, consolation for myself, i did apply sun block. so i guess today's session wasn't bad. tempted by jin to go. like after so loooooonggg. hopefully my new piercing doesn't get infected. i've been cleaning it like some person with ocd.

i did enjoy my day with all their company.

anws, i finally dota-ed yest night. i managed to get some kills. but my glory only lasted for a game. they went off to have supper so i tagged along. jin accompanied me home to get my stuff then cabbed over to his place. i didn't really sleep for the whole night. well, last night i think i managed to appreciate the man-u's last minute goals. seriously, all 5 goals scored during second half.

ok. i think i'm going to my lala land soon. i think i'd still be in lala land if not for my missing bed sheet. i'm simply too lazy to do anything today. i'm suppose to bath monstie but i can't even keep my eyes wide open for long. so tired. i still have some assignments to do. ahhhhhhhh!

ok. i think i'll go off& rot until my bed sheet's ready for me.

on a sidenote, i decided to stop being fake. no more trouble washing hair or drying hair.wahahahahaha.

hihi.

i'm in pain.

i'm burnt. i think it's almost 1st degree burn. but i think i'm experienced in getting burnt so i dun really bother to think bout the pain that much.

anyways. i'm figuring out how to load pics onto facebook. i feel like deleting my facebook account.

i'm contemplating whether to seriously go for osip. so many things holding me back. no. actually, there's only my sis's wedding. someone has to be here to help her prepare since fiona won't be in sg then. hai. africa. i want. seriously. i've been thinking of it since yr 1. i want to go africa. but i feel that if i really wan it, i'll work things out. i will. that's what kept me going. i will go there for sip or not.

it's time for closure. it's long enough.

i tot i would take a very long time to heal. but apparently, i managed to do it earlier then expected. i admit i still think of the past. but it doesn't hurt thinking of it anymore. i think up till now, i still wish that you never existed in my life. if i hadn't gone for the band camp, we wouldn't even have met. then i wouldn't have lost so much during the year& a half. many things have been taken for granted. many things just happened that made a mark in my life. but i think these just never belonged to me. you never belonged to me. much of it was just a mistake i refused to let go. i gave you my heart but you didn't treasure it, returning me a broken, tattered one. i mended it& i swear nobody but myself can ever abuse it. i'm glad you gave it all up. so much stuff i have learnt. dun give out your heart so easily. dun give your trust too early. dun be too forgiving. always reserve love for yourself, love yourself more than anyone else unless you're prepared to share it. never fence yourself from the outside world. now i understand why they always say love yourself more than anyone. so much has been taken away from me. you have to believe in karma. it'll get back to you someday.

i'm glad we bid our goodbyes as couple. hopefully, well, i know we still can be friends.

moving on, i'm looking for my opened door of happiness. i think i've ever mentioned of a quote from hellen keller,
"when a door of happiness closes, another opens, people don't see the it because they dwell on the closed door for too long missing out on the open one."
well, it's not word for word, but something like that.

end of this chapter of my life.

life can be a bitch& i believe in karma. it'll befall on you when you least expect it.

alrighty. nights.

i'm so drained. replaced aishah doing opening this morning. rushed for school after work which ended at 3.

school is kinda crappy. had some ''inspiring'' overseas internship seminar talk before lecture started. our class pathetically sat on the floor behind the auditorium. stupid yee mon. anyway, i'm amused by his name, doctor yee mon richard. like where did richard come from.

headed home after school, rested a while& let monstie out from the pan. she's considered amazingly well behaved today. when i say well behaved, she played herself, pee-ed on newspaper, slept& wasn't much of nonsense to the extent i could finish my uncompleted gossip girls. now she's been banished back to her pen. whining as usual, but i believe she's tired alr, so whining should stop soon. luckily my room isn't the one near her pen.

my eye is like freaking itchy.

hmmmmmmmmm. i'm sleepy alr. hopefully me& darling can go sentosa tan on thurs. tmr's time table suck. 5 hr lecture. like SHIT!! f.

why couples who are obviously in love refuse each other's love or the romance always comes at the wrong time where either party are not prepared. seriously. watching gossip girls makes my blood boil. chuck& blair are obviously in love, why can't they just admit it& be together. why must serena be so mindful that her mum& dan's dad is dating. like f. it's not as if they're blood related, it won't be considered incest right?

ok. anyways, i'm jus bitching about. you can ignore it. or maybe darling would agree with me totally. haha.

how did some vibrator advert find me. random.

anyways. i've been busy with work, catching up with darling& moviessss. wahahaha.

food for thought. why blog? i guess it doesn't matter if my blog ceases to exist.

night everyone. wish me a great sem ahead.

hey hey hey. i've been lazy. forgive me.

anyways the rascal in the picture is my beloved daughter monstie. heh. i'm only her temporary mother. heh.

the rascal who pees all over the hse, whenever, wherever she likes to.

the rascal who whines whenever she gets banished back to her little play pen.

the rascal who loves to turn her head around& bite whenever you try to pat her.

the rascal who out of nowhere got this pink teddy& pushed it to my leg.

the rascal who learnt to sit& give paw in 2 minutes.

the rascal who loves biting and chasing her own tail.

the rascal who gets high when she sees the mop flying around her.

the rascal who gets hiccups everytime she gets too high.

the rascal who gobbles down her food in 2 minutes.

so much more lah.

anyone keen to adopt her? call or text me at 91735885! she'll grow up to be somewhere near a small sized golden retriever, so only those living in landed property will be allowed to have her. she's 9 and a half weeks old only, but she's almost as big as a maltese alr, so imagine her size when she grows up. but, still text me if you're interested. :D

new semester shall be a new start for me. the cold hard truth is that i wish you never existed in my life. never.

i wonder. what happened to gecko's sticky grip. recently i've been seeing geckos dropping down from the wall or walking on the ground. evolution made them non-gravity-proof anymore. tsk.



rinsed the 2 rascals earlier on. had sis& mum to help me. love them to bits. wahahaha.



i wanted to change blogskin. but i think i'm too lazy to look for blogskins. normally, i'll take like 2 days to find one to my liking. no time today, so postponed.



this week will be coming to an end. like finally. this week will be my routine for my attachment& working line if i choose to continue working like this when i graduate. it's only 5 days and i'm so drained. imagine my future working life. it'll be worse. it's life. i'll have to face it.



my blog is boring. i dun blog photos. i dun self take a lot. hmmmm. i'm actually jus lazy to upload photos. it jus take too much time. i'll do a phlog before school starts.(hopefully)



oh yah!!! i want to bitch about the receptionist at the clinic. it's as if me& sharon owe her a million bucks. since we saw her on tues, never once she smiled to us. so hostile.

this post was supposed to be up 2 days ago. but my desktop died on me so i couldn't post. bringing the 2 rascals for vaccination tmr. so, i shall have an early night cos i need to bath them in the morning before we set off.

night guys. :D i hope i can handle the coming store outing professionally as what idram says.

ivy, i'm counting down the number of days i'll be seeing you again, after a month& a half long.

my escapade.

i've been busy with the 5 day attachment. we'll get to see surgeries of different level as days goes by. interesting i can say. somehow i feel cold hearted when i'm there. i dun really have the compassion to feel anything for animals being put down. am i really heartless alr? i wonder. i've witnessed 2 so far, a bat& a cat. somehow for the cat i really feel cold hearted. i dun feel anything after witnessing it being put down& bagged. i think i'm immune to it.

everyday for this week seems to be a routine. especially with monstie& guiness around. knock off at 6, bus then walk home. reach home, rot for 5 mins, feed them, clean their pen, wait for them to poo, play for a while, watch tv, wait for dinner then finally i can rest. i'll take an hour to clean them up every evening. it's so much commitment. so tiring. but they're cute. heh. i've yet to take picture of them. lazy to. everytime i see them, they're always in a mess. my goodness. just a look at their pen, i'll lose all my mood, i'll automatically become a maid. sometimes i try to ignore, but they're play fights get louder& louder& louder. but, they're still so cute.

i think moving on is a better choice. routine made me forget about stuff. but when things quiten down, i'll start thinking. but it's all over. god make some good bf drop from the sky.

ok. i'll go rot for a while before feeding the 2 rascals& cleaning them up. :D