300.

it's my 300th post.

anw. i feel like sleeping all day because of the flu and cough med. feel like a drug addict. went to the doc again yest, 3rd doc in 2 weeks. got a stronger flu med and antibiotics. hopefully enough to make me well for tmr's diving trip.

wahahaha. tmr's the diving trip. so eggggciting! hopefully i won't be dead when i'm back on sunday night.

and. and. my tp is on the 7th. i need luck from all of you guys on that day man. yest was my first circuit lesson. i thought i did quite well. wahahaha. ok. hopefully, things will go well on the day itself.

alright, i need to study for LAST alr. if you notice, i've been mentioning things to complete and study after almost every recent post. omg. i can die.

ok. bye.

Review.

i made these resolutions for 2009. i think i should review what i've done.

1.attend all lectures
2.get at least an A in any subject
3.be a better friend to everyone
4.be a better daughter mummy& daddy
5.be a better gf to dear
6.room makeover
7.be more savvy in everyway
8.watch more movies
9.mean what i say
10.make use of my organiser
11.be a coffee master
12.land into my dream attachment
13.contiki tour to US or EUROPE
14.wildlife volunteer in south africa (alternative to pt. 13)

i haven't completed any of it except, no.2,4,7 and 8.
hmmmm.not that bad.

it's pointless to attend ALL lectures when you can get As without them.
i'm nobody's gf now, so i dun need to be any better! :D
i kinda mean what i say AT TIMEs, but i duno when.
my organiser is growing mouldy. friends are better organisers. :D
hmmmm. i won't have the time to be coffee master until next year, if i'm still in SB. i was kinda hoping idram would promote me to be shift manager. :D
what was my dream attachment then? i'd be happy with UWW.
i dun have time for any holidays alr. crappppp.

well. done reviewing. so much happened this year. everyone matures as years pass. i wonder if it's a good or bad thing. i think i think more as i grow. as in the irritatingly more type.

anw. i seriously NNEEEEEDDDDD to study for bpharm.

ok. bye.

Shopping.

omg. i'm addicted to shopping. shopping online. but i have to admit, all those are good and cheap buys man. i dun feel the need to step out of the house to get new clothes.

anw, after the cancellation of the china attachment, i've been planning for sooooo many things. i can save enouh money to go taiwan shopping next year with baby& darling. actually, i'm happy to go anywhere, out of sg of course, with them. wahhahaha. the thought of it is so eggggciting. i can't wait!

let's pray my cough will disappear by friday.

i want a rash guard/suit for the trip! i wanna catch fighting and public enemies! so many stuff to do.

OH! i can be here to catch NEW MOON during it's release! wahahahahaha.5 more months. nt long.

ok. i need to go study bpharm. again.

ok. bye.

WHEEEE!

hmmm.i'm not sure whether to consider this good or bad news.

anw. i'm not going china anymore.

i'm more happy than sad actually.

WHY? because...
i dun have to worry over money problems.
i can go diving with ease of mind. wahahahha.
i can buy clothes online without feeling that much guilt.
i can help out with my sis's wedding.
i can celebrate birthdays.
i can get christmas pressies.
i can celebrate new year.
mummy has company even after sis gets married.
i dun have to worry i can't get my license before 19.

wahahahah. luckily, i'm prepared. but i'll really be sad if i dun get the uderwater world placement.

the cough med is really strong. i'm so sleepy. seriously. so high on drugs. tsk.

anw, i need to complete the SaPrn presentation.

ok. bye.

p.s: darling. it feels so long since i talked to you luh. even though i just met you today. soooon, we'll have another sleep over k. LOVE!

God Bless ME!

baby, i was referring to my baby cousin. heh.

seriously, i can't really be bothered with the quizzes anymore. i want to die alr. FFF.

ok. off to SaPrn quiz.

ok. bye.

p.s: lucky i did kinda well for term test, or you'll see me coming back for another freaking sem.

omg. diving in 4 days time WAHAHAHAHAHAH~

Post 295.

FIGHTING

Public Enemies

i want to watch movies!!! anyone? dun worry. i'll wear mask, i promise i won't cough or sneeze into your face. plsssss. :D

heh.

anw, you know there's fake so many fake stuffs in the world, so many to the extent that there's even a fake twitter. like f. i read it from some newspaper. interesting how people will go about faking stuff to cheat the innocent netizens. tsk tsk. where did all the moral go.

i'm stuck at home. till next mon at least. unless sis allows me to go out search for her weddings shoes tmr. visiting baby is out of question. but i can't wait. i have to recover! for diving! actually, come to think of it, i dun recover on time, i'd be saving a lot of money. tsk. we shall see.

dhasedyl is kicking in alr. i think i'm going to nap soon.

i. really. need. to. study! crap.

ok. bye.

p.s: i miss S & I!

p.p.s: baby. that phrase is subjected to copy-right!

MC.

wahahaha. i've got mc for tmr. i've effectively skipped school for the week and rotted at home since tues.

i'm hungry.

i will recover, die die recover by next week. for diving, i WILL!

ok. bye.

Sleep.

i need sleep. tossed and turned the whole night. my bones are breaking. if i'm still having fever today i'll need to go do the test. then chances are, my diving trip is cancelled. sobbbbbs. and i can't visit baby any sooner.

i haven stepped into school for the whole week. wahahaha. but there's so much stuff undone. crap.

anw, i lost weight. :D i haven really eaten much since tues.

i think i'm going back to bed with the cough med.

ok. bye.

H1N1

ok. fell sick yesterday but still went to work in the morning. i thought i almost fainted during work. anw, came home and slept for 5 hrs straight. mum was so worried that i caught H1N1. i'm just a runny nose away from being sent to do the test (which i'm kinda having now). after so many years, mum came in to my room to check on me. i feel so loved. heh. i slept for 15hrs since last night. omg. the cough med is really effective.

going down to take MC later. which reminds me, i have 3 test to study for and 1 assignment due. F. what a week.

anw. today's the 22nd. i wonder if there will be a tsunami. i doubt so, it's only a hypothesis. i missed the ecilpse. i think.

i think fever damaged my brain. i'm random and nt making sense.

ok. bye.

Suddenly.

i'm in love.

in love with....

Fly with me - Jonas brothers
Never say never - The fray
You found me - The fray
Mix tape - Butch walker

Baby. help me dl these songs with your new software. THANK YOU! mwah.

ok. bye.

Face.

my face looks so diseased after facial. my god.

anw. i had fun last night luh! i love kelly man. she did my hair after cutting. wahahaha. who can get a better hair stylist than her. :D

who would imagine all of us clubbing together after 7 years. 7 years leh. time passed so fast.

i'll upload the photos later on.

i'm contemplating whether to stay home and watch harry potter later on or look for hz. i dun think i'll e so sway this week.

ok. bye.

S & I

ahhhh. when it comes to being my pillar, both of you never fail me.

i love you guys. for the 2 of you, i shall stop emo-ing. :D

baby, i'm still going diving ok. provided tsunami doesn't come on the 22nd. anw, there'll be eclispe on that day, we shall see it together.

.

ok. now i wish time can fast forward. then i'll really vanish for real.

Dumb-Dumber-Dumbest.

i feel nth more than an idiot.

Baby.

i got it baby.

it's seriously what i need. :D

LOVE YOU!

you know you'll always have me no matter what happens.

(hey! hey! hey! hey!)
Top down in the summer sun
the day we met was a hit and run
And I still taste it on my tongue (taste it on my tongue)
The sky was burning up like fireworks
You made me want you oh so bad it hurt
But girl in case you havent heard

I used to be love drunk, but now Im hung over
Ill love you forever, forever is so far
We used to kiss all night, now its just a bar fight
So dont call me crying say hello to goodbye
Cause just one sip would make me sick
I used to be love drunk, but now Im hung over
Ill love you forever, but now its over
*hey! hey! hey! hey!*

Hot sweat and blurry eyes
Were spinning round a rollercoaster ride
The world stuck in black and white
You drove me crazy every time we touched
Now Im so broken that I cant get up
Oh girl you make me such a rush

I used to be love drunk, but now Im hung over
Ill love you forever, forever is over
We used to kiss all night, now its just a bar fight
So dont call me crying say hello to goodbye
Cause just one sip would make me sick
I used to be love drunk, but now Im hung over
Ill love you forever, but now its over

All the time i wasted on you
All the bullshit you put me through
Checking into rehab cause everything that we had
Didnt mean a thing to you
I used to be love drunk , but now Im hung over
Ill love you forever, but now its over

I used to be love drunk, but now Im hung over
Ill love you forever, forever is over
We used to kiss all night, now its just a bar fight
So dont call me crying say hello to goodbye
Cause just one sip would make me sick
I used to be love drunk, but now Im hung over
Ill love you forever, but now its over

Now its over
Can taste it on my tongue
Now Its over

OMG.

i'm dying of.... restlessness. if there's such thing.

you know the feeling of wanting to say something but fear it's outcome. it's like exploding soon. but i'm really afraid of the outcome, the possible future, the possible failure.

it's been long since i've felt something like that.

HOW?

Tsunami.

wah lau. turn off. mum was telling me to postpone my diving trip because there's a predicted tsunami on 22july. FFFFF. i dun care. i'm still going.

Randomly Blank.

omg. my emo self is coming back. but i believe it shall be gone sooooon. by mid week when i catch harry potter. wahahahahahahaha. can't for weekends either.

anw. i'm like super pissed with tp portal. i spent time squeezing out my brain juice to do some reflection. when i clicked the save draft button, the webpage expired and i can't log in since then. F. i was seriously in the mood to reflect and these kind of stupid techy stuff happens. nt helping.

i think i'm going to TAF to prepare for lab later. damn exciting. wahahaha. we're spaying queen. :D

Fck.

ffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff.
ffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff.
fffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff.
ffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff.

ok. i think i'm done venting my anger.

off to bed.

Die.

i so want to give myself continuous mental slap so i can wake up. then i can stop being naive. for the moment.

i got 40 bucks worth of book right after what i heard. i want to disappear right away. i shouldn't have looked kelly up. or maybe i should have went earlier. then i wouldn't hear whatever. even if it was meant to be a joke you know i can be easily deceived. i told you to tell me. F. i'm so affected even though i know it most probable isn't true. sometimes i wake up wanting to text you so much. wanting to go over and hug you. wanting to tell you i still love you. wanting to tell you that i can still be yours. wanting to tell you i can forget whatever that just happened.

but.

IT'S NEVER EVER GOING TO HAPPEN. nt now, nt ever.
i hate myself. i hate you. i hate us. i'm just making life difficult for myself.

5 months and counting on. i'm determined.

F off.

Bummed.

i feel so bummed.

thanks huh. whether it's true or nt. you just made my freaking day. like you always did. i hate you. f. i thought i was just moving on well. it shouldn't be a joke. mean it when you say things. treat her well if you really mean it. we're just fate that never worked out. fate that was never meant to happen.

i so want to cry even though i know it probably was a joke. or maybe it wasn't.

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.

ok. bye.

Dive pics.

look out me wearing the big YELLOW mask under water. heh.

there's quite a few repeats because most of the photos are taken under water, i can't figure out which on is which. heh.

anw, phiyornah, i'll make the oneh oneh on monday cause i can't get the coconut tday.

ok. i'm off to find huizi and get my toner alr.

ok. bye. :D

Blade.

good work out tday with baby, baileys& hasrin.

i got home unhurt. wahahahaha. we went ECP to blade. spent most of the time laughing. knocked out when i reached home.

i'm still contemplating whether to go tm to get my toner. i'm kinda desperate to get out of my house for god knows what reason.

i figured. i'm very much a loner because i decided to give up asking people out. except for a few. how i wish i stay near baby& darling.

anw, i'm so egggcited. whahaha. can't wait for the parcels to arrive. new clothes!!!

ok. i'm going off to rot alr.

ok. bye.

p.s: baby. i wanna go again next week. wahahaha

I get it.

he's dead.
worth dead more than alive.
tsk. i've been watching tributes to micheal jackson since yest. ENUFFFFF man.

anw. i was fish monger during lab tday. haha.

fiona will be off tmr. sian.

ok. bye.

Hah.

i'm going with dawn!

wahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. suddenly i'm so in love with YM. lol.

pray for me. pray that the china visa will be approved.

ok. bye.

Second.

have you ever felt like being a replacement for something, being a replacement for something twice?

the first time happened when me and marc went for cedele interview. obviously, he got it. a week or 2 later when he decided to quit for something else, the manager called me immediately after marc called him. i almost cried when he called me. it's like, i can't be compared to him, i'm never the first choice, people only want me because they got rejected by their first choice. i couldn't even feel good with him, the worst was he used this to criticize me when we quarelled some time later.

the second time, well, it's the attachment thing.

i wonder why i'm always the replacement.

this feeling sucks. FFFFFFFF.

i'm so tired of looking forward to things because things just fall apart on it's own.

so un-motivated again.

K.O

it's the china attachment company.
dawn got it, unless she rejects it.

disappointment spells all over.

Float/Sink?

eh.

when i was diving at tioman, i had a lot of difficulty trying to sink. so the first 3 dives, i was simply trying to swim myself down. by the 4th dive, i simply gave up and floated on the surface. lol. luckily during the last dive, i can FINALLY sink and take pictures. lol. i'll upload the pictures some other time.

so looking forward to the LOB trip. wahahahaha.

i seriously hope i can get the china attachment. i wonder when will we get the results.

anw, caught transfomers again yest with the guys and hz. somehow it was worth watching it again. haha. headed to clark quay for a drink afterwards. i'm so going indochine next time. didn't get to go in as the guys were wearing slippers. ended up at fashion bar instead. wasn't that bad. didn't take any pic, phone was kinda dead. at the end of the night, i puked as usual. proven i have very bad liquor tolerance. why do i still drink. tsk.

i think i'm going down far east to surprise hz. it's been a year since i've been so close with her. we kinda got distanced from each other since the korea trip. well, my bad temper resulted in that lah. sorry girl. you're still my bestie after all that happened. love you! :D

i felt abandoned when i woke up cause no one was home. now everyone is home. hmmm. i'm going to abandon them soon! going out alr. wahahaha. random~

ok. bye.

Imagine.

let's see.

i'm thinking of a few career options.

1. Contract admin job (3-6 months) (den i'll go travel around)
2. NIE (8 years)
3. Army k9 unit (provided they do accept direct entry
4. Pet sitting
5. Pet grooming

hmmmm. i've been imagining. need to find out more about the k9 unit stuff first.

i want to go out.

i need powerpoint to do saprn.

i want to go for the china attachment. hmmmm

ok. bye.