friends. i feel like an outcast amongst you all, the longest friends i had. holidays seems lonelier then ever. holiday seems like a real bitch now. holiday seems like it's never ending now.

i'm depressed.

*i'm asking/ demanding/ begging EVERYONE to call me out. i doubt it's going to happen. jus shouting out silently.

i feel pathetic. why can't i speak my mind infront of people, i seriously don't know what's keeping things behind. maybe now if i want to catch up, it may seem a little too sudden. i'm afraid you all may feel i have a motive. i do have a motive, i just want your company. you're the happiest company i can ever have even though you all can get irritating at times.

i'm bitching. shuttup.