We're both scorpios and I understand where you're coming from. But I just can't accept the fact that you're back with him, yet again. Life can get lonely at times, but he's not the only option you have. Why do you always go back to the same point and end up regretting?
It's becoming a cycle. Tell me if I'm wrong.. You'll look for comfort after breaking up with him and eventually fall in love with the person. After a few months, somehow or rather, you get in contact with him and decide to dump your comfort food and get back with him. You'll start acting weird before breaking up. it's the second time this is happening.
I really trusted you when you told me things got weird with your comfort food. I hate it when you lie to me. I'd rather you be honest with me. Yes, I'll flare up but at least you're honest with me. Don't tell me that breaking up with your comfort food has nothing to do with him. Getting back with him in such a short time after breaking up with comfort food isn't some overnight thing. So please just stop lying to me. I give up on your relationship matters, don't treat me like some fool and lie to me. I know when you're lying.
So I'm guessing he's just too important in your life to the extent, you'd rather risk our friendship once again. I understand now how much Ivy and I mean to you.
I did not lie. There was really problem with me and yang. Even if Melvin doesn't exist. We still wouldn't last long. We dont suit each other. Being tgt in the first place might be due to long hours of being together.
ReplyDeletePeople make mistakes. Everytime i had problem with him I'd complain. I'd regret. But there are alot alot of things all of the people don see. Which is how me and him walked to this stage. Years ago, it really used to be his fault, he's the horrible one. But after the first time we patched up. It was me being unreasonable. I became the playful one and he had been the one tolerating my nonsense and wildfulness. He doesn't show who he is when he's with other people. What people don see is how he always tells me to take care of myself. How he always worry when i'm out late and at places where I'd be taken advantage of. How he can sacrifice his friends for me. All that you see is how he got angry after a quarrel of me going home late with random guys, or do silly things that make myself look like a fool. He actually corrects me alot. Both of us have our own temper. We just need to learn to give and take. Now that both of us had buried our past and none of us had mention of our ugly past, we could live better together and even happier. Of cos there'd still be quarrels but we learnt how to compromise with each other and most imptly we learnt how to say "sorry"
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I never risk our friendship because of him. I never told you because I'd know how you would react to it. I didn't really like explaining this situation. Or you an say i didn't had the courage to tell you becos i really couldn't handle what you'd give me.
Pls dont feel that I never cherished you or Ivy. I dont have much friends. We dont have much similar hobbies too. But I still thank god that I met both of you. I apologise for all this caused. Taking this path, I know I'd have many many objections. Now i had to handle my families, I had to keep explaining. And next is you and Ivy and Christina, followed by the rest of the world. I can keep explaining and explaining but it is not compulsory that everyone can understand us. Because none of them is us. They wouldn't know how we had felt for each other. But i Don blame anyone for falring at me. Especially you and my mother and my sister. Some day you all would understand why i had took this path.
Anw, mel and me had a misunderstanding that's why we both gave up on each other and moved on. But we found out that we can actually only hide each other but we couldn't really let go.
I hope you understand. Because you can break my heart just like how i can because we matters to each other.