i think i've been naive for a very long time. the only thing i should be missing is maisy. everything is over from today onwards. it's hurting. it's hurting. it shouldn't hurt anymore.


"sometimes when you're young,
you think nothing can hurt you.
It's like being invincible.
Your whole life is ahead of you,
and you have big plans.
Big plans.
To find your perfect match.
The one that completes you.
But as you get older,
you realize it's not always that easy.
It's not until the end of your life that you realize how the plans you made were simply plans.
At the end,
when you're looking back instead of forward,
you want to believe that you made the most of what life gave you.
You want to believe that you're leaving something good behind.
You want it all to have mattered."

-one tree hill

that's part of growing up i guess. i shall start learning the art of distraction. i don't know how, but i shall learn.

i swear, i won't rush into things next time. sometimes, i wonder whether hate is safer than trust.