so pain. so numb. i'm not pacifying myself by telling myself that everything is ok. it isn't. i just need to get over it. i need time. give me sometime to emo and i'll be ok. i'm sorry if i just dun feel like talking about it because i knew this was coming and i naively continued. i'll be quiet. i won't pester. i won't do something stupid. so baby& darling dun worry. i just feel like keeping quiet. i feel like crying so much. but i refuse to because it hurts me so much. i think i'll jus sleep it off and continue with life. it's just another episode of life. i've been thru so much, this is nth. i refused to step out of my comfort zone. i forced you to be with me, you tried but i didn't feel it. sorry.

i've been sleeping so much i feel so lethargic, i feel like jus quitting school so i dun have to face exams.

i just hope i'll have the courage to not blog about all these feelings like how you'll do it.