Disappointment.

The truth always hurts yet lies are worse.

Sorry is deafening & blind yet action speaks.

People get tired, don't they?

Hidding, compromising, complying, giving, waiting, initiating.

No one wants second best, everyone wants the best.

Reassurance, security..

i wish i've found.

got this off yan kai's blog.

last night was awesome.

but it left me with so much thoughts.

so much to consider.

i fear disappointment. for you and for me. i fear commitment. it hurts so much when happiness meets dead end. i'm salvaging my heart, my emotions now. i'm not prepared to give it out yet. not any sooner. i don't know what i want for myself now. i'm so tired of not knowing what i want, so tired of not being able to feel. i'm giving up. sorry.