Honesty.

If you're a normal kid, grew up in a normal family, went to school and made friends, you should know this cliche phrase - "Honesty is the best policy". If you haven't heard of it, you're dysfunctional. Haha. Just kidding.

I learnt the hard way that honesty isn't always the best policy. It brings you down. I got rejected from various companies, rejected from people and institutions because of honesty. Why doesn't employers hire one who is honest, why would they choose those liars instead? I guess it's just how realistic this society is. They'd rather hear lies which sounds pleasant rather than truth which sounds utterly repelling. This modern society sucks. So much so for communication skills teaching you not to lie, so much so for parents teaching you to be honest. You be honest with your wrong-doings, you get scolded and grounded. You lie and deny everything, you'll at least get some lee-way, maybe your parents choose to believe your lie and let the matter rest.

So why be honest when it doesn't help?

Maybe for me, at least honesty lets me sleep better, live with conscience. I've had enough of lying to people around me, especially my parents, and trying to hide the fact from them. It's so hard to be myself even tho I'm home. I've spent too much time trying to cover up my wrong-doings, I missed out the joy of enjoying my time at home. In fact, I hate being home because I need to lie and put on a pretense. That's why, during the 2 months away, I miss home so much, I made a pact with myself to not lie to my family. They deserve to know whatever that's happening to me and whatever I'm doing.