hi peeps.

so much things have been happening.
someone pls tell me how to react to whatever that has been happening.
it's just small little things that i've done or say to make things the way they are.
i hate how things are now.
i never liked how things were.
it's only gotten worst recently.
i feel like breaking down.
but i realised even breaking down requires courage.
everything is welling up.
i'll be exploding very soon.

i feel stupid doing whatever i've done.
when i try to reach up to you,
you keep on going further& further away from me.
when i've decided to withdraw from our world,
leave you in your solitary state,
you come running back to me?

i'm tired.
i want to stop breathing.
i want to vanish.
if only vanishing can solve all problems.