somthing is back to haunt me. i'm really still stuck in time. i can't move on. i'm suffocating. i'm trying to be happier then before, ever. but it's just tiring. why had i let everything go so fast? i want to give up forgetting. please tell me i'm just having nightmares now. someone wake me up, save me from hell. fact is, i'm living a true life. i can't avoid anymore.