hmmm. i hate the font. i have no idea why i can't change my font. this is irritating. seriously. shit.

anyways. i'm blogging out of boredem. no one is home now except for me& grandpa. somehow as i grow up, the house becomes more& more empty. but, sis is bringing back dinner. wahahaha. i dont have to cook dinner myself. good.

nites..is that to prove me wrong? hmmmm. i think not. i need, i want more. i want, i need more. how to put it in words to you? i dun have the courage to say it infront of you. i can only say it here. i miss you loads. i want to hug you badly. but for once. i'm determined. i'm not giving in. i feel right for being pissed this time. i refuse to give in. i hate her. i hate you being with her. i only want you to be mine. not anyone else's.

ok. anyways. skipped mbio lecture this morning. went for lunch then went for 4.5 hr of CD1 lecture. we almost couldnt make it out of the lt. seriously. 3 hrs of lecture is ridiculous enough. they wanted to have 6. crap. lucky they changed it to next week normal ridiculous 3 hrs. well. it's better than 6.

i'm harping on the issue like nobody's business. it's been long since i've carried this much hatred for someone. this is sickening. fffffuck. i'm thinking about it every single min. how can i get you out of hell. i worry about you every moment you're home. she'll force you till your threshold level.

i'm thinking too much. but. i cant help it.