omg. i hate assignments. especially with me doing it so last minute.

i'm going to be depressed a few days before new year. overheard sis& mum talking about dad and his temper. crapppppppppppppppppp. because of his temper we haven't had real reunion dinner for years. my years of happiness during new year was long gone since that fucking incident happened. my dad simply closed his world& our world. fuck. this is ridiculous. i hate it.

anyways. d& his mum quarelled like nobody's business again. i just feel like killing her on the spot. seriously. i seriously think she has a mental problem. she wants to challenge her son. then she threatens to call the police because she's afraid of her son. then when she don't call the police, she'll call everyone else to tell everyone about the embarassing stuffs that are supposed to be kept at home. she needs to tell her story, show it on some bilboard, tell everyone who can see it. until everyone pity her, she gets satisfied, everything goes back to normal. when she's happy, she gives allowance, when she's upset, she leaves him to feed off grass. i've never met someone this stuborn. never. i really wish i can earn enough money, d can earn enough money to move out of this shit. i seriously wanted, had the urge to pack his stuff& force him to leave hell. no, the place is not hell. it's just the person there making things difficult. she never really took care of him when he was young, now that he's old, she wants so much control. i hate her. i wouldn't hate her so much if she doesn't include me in quarrels every single time. this is terrible. first time since after primary school, i have the urge of killing someone so badly. i know i'll get karma. but i'm doing it willingly. i wonder what will happen to d that night if i wasn't there. thruout this year plus, everytime he quarrels, everything gets from bad to worst. i wonder what will happen the next time. i hope he'll sue his mum when he's old for the sufferings. FYI, it's legit to sue your mum for not upbringing you properly. just because it's your hse, it's your electric, you'll have your right of way. fucking shit.

i've got my own family issues to deal with, you have to add it you.

ok. i'll go look for d alr.