omg. pls. kill. me.

i tot i wouldn't have the post mortem guilt feeling. apparently. i am feeling it now. sausage mum cook looks like rabbit's liver, intestine, whatever. crap. crap. i'm sorry ah-bit for skinning you. sickening me. i named just named you ah-bit. at least you died with a name. not just tagged by number.

i miss my d. to him it's mood swing. is it? i really duno. i really seriously hate you going home now. i hate the fucking bitch you have to live with. i fear for you. i really wish i can kill her or silence her or give her some potion that can make her shut the hell up. ahhh. i hate her.

ok. anyways. i miss d because i told him out of fury that he won't expect to see me this week, so he simply didn't contact me for a day. reason he gave was that i was having mood swing, how to talk to me?

i want to keep to my word. but i can't resist the temptation of contacting him. that's why i'm so pissed with myself. i'm still pissed with d because he simply replies when he feels like it. fuck. crap. fuck. school is sickening aad troublesome. now all these stuff keeps on coming. up. i think i'll have advanced menopause soon. fuck. not as if other girls text you, you'd delay or dun even bother to reply. sometimes like what baby& darling says. maybe it's when you lose something you'll feel the need for the something. i always want to make you feel this to treasure me more. bbut somehow it simply doesn't work. crap.

there's so much things i want to do in such short time. i've finally cleaned up my room. it's just as cluttered as before. i just cleaned up some stuff& threw away the rubbish. apparently the cleaning wasn't much help in keeping pests away. yest i just saw mosquito flying around. today i saw a baby lizard somewhere near the shelf, very extremely near my bed. i can only hope it doesn't get onto or beside my bed. lucky fiona is not around. if not she'll freak out.

anyways, my com screen having mood swings. so sometimes i can see things, sometimes it's just blank. so i won't be online that often until it's fixed. i'm using my bro-in-law's mac. i'm kinda pissed because i keep on pressing some button then my cursor will just disappear somewhere when i'm still typing. so pls forgive me if some of whatever i typed seem gibberish.

i've finished prison break season 4& heroes season 3. like finally. there'll still be sequel to heroes. hmmmm. i tot it will be the end alr. now i'll just be waiting for gossip girls season 2& one tree hill season 6 to complete. but i won't be able to buy those from m'sia because i've decided not to talk or greet or even step into that house because of that bitch. but i duno how long i can last with this anger. i kinda forgive& forget easily.

yest went to tm after school to get some stuff. i returned book& got 3 books from sans. went to artbox got my cork board. got the artbox member. wahahaha. i like the card. another addition. i think it'll be useful for me. i love artbox stuff. then went to minitoons to get my sweets. heh. :D but i spent almost everything of whatever i deposited. hmmm. i've decided to deposit my allowance once i get it. i can save better this way. i guess. better than put the cash lying there& risk spending it.

i duno why this post ended up so naggy. i think it's because i haven been talking that much recently. ahhhh. crap.

p.s: pls buy moisturizer. thank you
p.p.s: pls bank in red packet money.
p.p.p.s: pls try not to have mood swing
p.p.p.p.s: pls try to win the cold war. make him give in. i dun care this time.

i'm writing this because i know you won't read it. otherwise, prove me wrong. i think i'll still end up disappointed.

ok. the end.