1. ok. i hate perfectionist. suddenly i feel so uncertain, unsafe, insecured. no one is suppose to be threatening anything right now. if i ever find out that anyone is stepping in, i'm seriously killing your soul. i hate you.
2. somehow as days pass, guilt turned into hatred. it's ridiculous for such a treatment. you're ridiculous. & i'm stupid for feeling the guilt initially. i foolishly got depressed because of your ridiculous behaviour. i hate you.

i'm talking about 2 diff things here btw. my life sudddddeeeennnnnlllllyyyy is filled with hatred. karma will befall on me soon. but i can't help it but to feel hatred. i remembered my conductor telling me that it's pointless bearing so much hatred in me, in the end, i'm the only one feeling it and suffering from the hatred.