Monday, August 11, 2008

warning!!!!!! another emo post ahead.

i'm going crazy! i'm pacing around.... waiting. i wonder other than me not being around when it rains and you just woke up, would you be lost, not knowing what to do? i think not. hmmmmm. i think you'll just ring someone else and find your own entertainment without me. without me. if only if i could tell you whatever i feel whenever i feel like. somehow i can't bring myself to do it. someone give me the courage to do it. i'm getting drained more and more as days pass. somehow i dedicated my time to you so much unknowingly, i have no idea what to do now since the party is over. i want to do something for myself, but i don't know what. somehow things that i want to do will kind of include you. i can't bring myself to study.

things i want to do
  1. prawning
  2. mahjong
  3. COD
  4. go redang (you told me you'll bring me there someday. i'm still waiting.)
  5. study

other than study,all involves you. i hate myself for doing this. including you in so much things till the extent i have no idea what to do when i'm alone except to study which i obviously hate and won't do. so i just end up stoning the whole day and wasting days away. if we ever give up on each other, i would spend my days being a tap and stoning. i hate it. it always happens.

i'm still emo-ing. i hate this period of time. crapppppppppp.

anws, i've finally cut my nails after procrastinating for damn long. and end up some nail got stuck under the comma key i can't get out. i hope it doesnt rot in there or sis will kill me. feels nice with my nails so short.

oh yah, recently i feel like going back to swim after watching the olympics. hmmmmm. it's only something temporary. when olympics is over, this wish will fade off too. but i think it was stupid of me to give it up. oh well, i may go back some day. MAY i emphasize. its sad that ian thorpe retired. my idol. hmmmm. micheal phelps is doing well too, my idol-to-be, if he wins the 8 gold medals he claims. heh.

alright, i shall continue stoning. TC peeps, don't emo around like me. it's bad for health.

before i go, passer, whoever you are, thanks many. it won't kill me, but i won't be strong for the moment. i've yet to find the courage to be strong.

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